Keep Going, You’re Doing Great!

This is what I did today:

– I worked on a book review (of Shion Miura’s novel The Great Passage) that very few people will read.

– I finished a translation (of a page from Breath of the Wild Master Works) that very few people will read.

– I worked on the final chapter a story (of the experimental Majora’s Mask AU I’ve mentioned before) that very few people will read.

– I inked and laid base flat digital colors onto a three-panel comic (about university-level teaching) that very few people will read.

– I sent final presentation evaluation emails personalized for each of my students, which I highly doubt they will read.

– I updated my CV and departmental annual progress report to reflect all the professional work I did in April, and let’s be real – no one is ever going to read either of those documents.

Yesterday I saw someone around my age in my professional cohort tweet about someone else around my age in my professional cohort, saying that he is emerging as the most refreshing voice in our field. Even though I know this had nothing to do with me, her tweet hit me right in the gut. Is my own work not original or impressive enough to be commented on? Will it ever be? It can be difficult to keep doing all sorts of creative, intellectual, and administrative work day after day while knowing that it’s unrealistic to expect that anyone will care or even pay attention in the first place. Not everyone can be the brightest witch of her age, after all.

This sort of existential angst can easily lead to depression, especially when coupled with the sort of mental exhaustion that can result from doing the kind of daily work I outlined above. I’m going to have to admit that I’m not always the brightest ray of sunshine, but I try to counteract the encroachment of despair by scattering small seeds of positivity within my communities. Every day I try to leave a review on the work of an academic or small-press-published author on Goodreads, or a short comment on a small-fandom fanfic on AO3, or a glowing review of someone’s craftwork on Etsy, or a line of appreciation on someone’s post on Patreon, or enthusiastic tags on a reblog of someone’s post on Tumblr, or an encouraging comment on someone’s picture on Instagram, or some combination of these acts. There are a lot of creators out there who are doing good work but don’t get enough support, and I strongly believe that we have to support one another. Knowing that maybe I was able to add just a tiny bit more fuel to someone’s fire helps me sustain my faith in the validity of creative work and creative communities.

But let me tell you a secret – when I write to someone else to encourage and support them, really I’m writing to myself. “Keep going, you’re doing great,” I might comment on the work of another writer or artist, but I’m saying it to them because that’s exactly what I need to tell myself.

So, if you’re reading this, keep going! You’re doing great!!